bambolina is spreading

a private nickname lasts approximately five minutes once your friends hear it. #

This is Yuri’s fault. Completely. Bambolina has escaped containment. Erick says it now when he wants to annoy me. Hikari has used it twice sarcastically. Marico laughed, which encouraged everyone. And because I apparently have no instinct for self-preservation, I changed my MSN name from `Eclipse` to `Eclipse // Bambolina` tonight before going out. I stared at it for a while first because it feels strange seeing it written by me. When Yuri says it, it’s his word for me. When I type it myself, it becomes something else. Maybe that’s why I left Eclipse there too. Eclipse is mine. It predates Yuri. It belongs to the site and the computer and all the older versions of me. Bambolina belongs to this particular moment, to being eighteen, blonde, in love, slightly embarrassed by sweetness and therefore obviously attracted to it. I am overthinking a nickname. This is what happens when I come home at three and decide to write.

Saturday was good, by the way. Techno. Less hard than yesterday. My feet hurt. Worth it.

Remember me, Eclipse.