Journal.

fragments of quiet intelligence

There is a manner in which certain things ask to be written, not so that they may be found, but because to exist in silence, for too long, eventually becomes insufficient. It is not urgency. It is something closer to a necessity that makes no noise, waiting patiently until it discovers the proper form. This archive was born in such a way.

Not as a diary. Not as a blog. Not as something that is updated merely for the sake of appearing alive. It is a place where certain thoughts come to rest, those which do not dissolve, those which return, those which insist with the silent obstinacy of things that truly belong to you...

Every article is a scene. Every word, a frame of something that would not have remained, had it not

been written

From the archive.

Logic & Form

2008 in numbers

numbers pretending they can summarise a year. cute. # 2008 in numbers. Age: 23 becoming 24. Yuri and Alice: six years becoming seven. Hikari and Marico: six. Erick and Mark:...

Music & Sound

2008 in songs

the year country invaded without evicting anybody # 2008 in songs. The obvious story is country, but saying «I discovered country» is too simple. I discovered a route through it....

Memory & Time

2008 in photographs

one year, several thousand files, absolutely no sane folder structure # 2008 in photographs. This is the first year where the second half is visually transformed by the Olympus. Before...

Laws & Universe

thermodynamics applied to the sofa

body + blanket + sofa = experimentally verified equilibrium # Thermodynamics applied to the sofa. I am not moving. Christmas has converted my body into a heat storage experiment. Blanket,...

Traditions & Culture

merry christmas

food, paper, family, perfume, phone calls, too much everything. correct. # Merry Christmas. I am full enough to become furniture. Presents good, including Dad pretending he did not care about...

Spirituality & Faith

silent night

quiet enough to hear wrapping paper from another room # Christmas Eve. «Silent» is generous because family homes produce noises even when everyone is trying to be peaceful. Paper. Doors....

Music & Sound

christmas playlist, mostly country

apparently nashville has entered christmas too. there is no escape now. # Christmas playlist, mostly country, because of course this is how 2008 ends. Old standards sung by voices I’ve...

Laws & Universe

from tomorrow the light returns

slowly. nobody expect beach weather by thursday. # From tomorrow the light returns. Technically the change is tiny and sunrise and sunset times don’t move symmetrically around the solstice because...

Journey & Time

the longest night

longest night sounds romantic until you remember monday morning still exists # The longest night. Not literally longest by every possible technical definition because time zones, exact solstice timing and...

Journey & Time

winter

winter arrives with cold fingers and unreasonable expectations about christmas # Winter. Almost solstice, officially tomorrow, but today feels winter enough. Cold outside, warm shops, everybody carrying packages, darkness arriving...

School & Learning

scientific method

have idea, test idea, discover idea was stupid, improve. excellent system for ego control. # Scientific method, or why «I think» should never automatically become «therefore true». Observation, hypothesis, testing,...

Questions & Musings

things that work anyway

after the year everything broke, a list of stubborn functioning # Things that work anyway: alarm clock, unfortunately. Tea. Friendship. My Olympus despite being treated like a newborn child. Mom’s...