There is a manner in which certain things ask to be written, not so that they may be found, but because to exist in silence, for too long, eventually becomes insufficient. It is not urgency. It is something closer to a necessity that makes no noise, waiting patiently until it discovers the proper form. This archive was born in such a way.
Not as a diary. Not as a blog. Not as something that is updated merely for the sake of appearing alive. It is a place where certain thoughts come to rest, those which do not dissolve, those which return, those which insist with the silent obstinacy of things that truly belong to you...
conclusions are dangerous when the story is still happening # A few conclusions, provisional because I hate pretending life has final chapters while everybody is alive. One: buying the Olympus...
sometimes sunday requires subtitles, tea and absolutely no heels # Japanese with subtitles tonight because after yesterday my feet requested cultural activity that can be performed horizontally. Hikari recommended something,...
apparently purple has enough subcategories to destroy friendships # Aubergine. Not plum. Not burgundy. Not violet. Not «purple», Yuri, if you value your life. Hikari and I spent part of...
friday again. somebody is accelerating the weeks without authorisation # Yet another weekend. How is it Friday? I swear Monday lasted fourteen years and then Tuesday through Friday disappeared in...
sleep on it is annoying advice because sometimes it actually works # The night brings advice, or at least reduces the emotional volume enough that your own advice becomes audible....
monday lasted approximately three fiscal quarters # Infinite Monday. Nothing bad, simply endless. Woke up tired, which is already a design flaw. Work began and somehow 10:00 to 13:00 contained...
autumn has apparently declared fabric a cultural event # Wool festival, not an official festival, just what today became because Mom and I went looking at winter things and every...
an incomplete list compiled through direct experimental evidence # Stupid things not to do: stay awake until two reading when you work in the morning. Wear new heels for a...
buying books and reading books are regrettably separate hobbies # Books to read. Stack growing. This always happens when I become interested in something because the Internet gives me ten...
up, down, strange, charm, top, bottom. physicists were clearly having fun by this point. # Quarks have excellent names. This is my sophisticated contribution to particle physics. Up, down, strange,...
i read three explanations and now understand enough to know the fourth will hurt # Symmetry that isn’t symmetrical, second attempt after dinner. I have been trying to explain spontaneous...
not sad, not angry, just temporarily unable to care whether the laundry wins # Apathy today, the harmless exhausted kind. I came home from work, looked at clothes needing attention...
Why?
Because every thought leaves a trace. If something moved you, disturbed you, softened you, or made you think, leave it here, quietly.