Country Night
sometimes staying home with music is not the consolation prize # Country night at home. Johnny Cash, Dolly, Emmylou, Alison Krauss, Dixie Chicks, Shania, Faith Hill, Brad, Carrie, Taylor, then...
Music & Sound
ECLIXAR
digital diary
Journal.
fragments of quiet intelligence
There is a manner in which certain things ask to be written, not so that they may be found, but because to exist in silence, for too long, eventually becomes insufficient. It is not urgency. It is something closer to a necessity that makes no noise, waiting patiently until it discovers the proper form. This archive was born in such a way.
Not as a diary. Not as a blog. Not as something that is updated merely for the sake of appearing alive. It is a place where certain thoughts come to rest, those which do not dissolve, those which return, those which insist with the silent obstinacy of things that truly belong to you...
Every article is a scene. Every word, a frame of something that would not have remained, had it not
been writtenFrom the archive.
Body & Energy
Weekly Exhaustion
thursday is friday’s less attractive cousin # Tired. Again. June heat beginning, work, people, sleep not quite enough. I came home and lay on the sofa without changing clothes until...
Questions & Musings
The Dissatisfaction That Creeps In
nothing is wrong, which sometimes makes restlessness harder to explain # There is a kind of dissatisfaction that arrives without a crisis to justify it. That’s the annoying kind. If...
Journey & Time
Week #22
summer work, summer plans, summer fatigue arriving early # Week twenty two. Work is busier because summer makes people suddenly negotiate with their skin. Loano is approaching. Amsterdam sits behind...
Body & Energy
Open Balconies
summer begins when everybody’s private noise escapes through the windows # Balconies open, windows open, televisions audible, cutlery somewhere, somebody laughing below, somebody arguing above, music from a room I...
Music & Sound
American Saturday Night
country before dinner, house after midnight, identity crisis successfully avoided # American Saturday Night again because Brad Paisley has apparently become seasonal architecture in this blog. Country while getting ready,...
Questions & Musings
Sentences That Make No Sense
apparently being tired removes grammar before consciousness # I told Yuri, «Can you put the cold in the fridge?» I meant water. He stared at me. «The cold?» «You know...
Traditions & Culture
Italy
republic day, flags, home, contradictions included # Italy today. Republic Day. Flags on balconies and institutional television and the usual strange experience of thinking about a country while standing inside...
Essence & Future
Netherlands Loading
please wait while alice attempts not to research an entire country before august # Netherlands loading. Slowly. I have promised Yuri I will not turn the next two months into...
Journey & Time
We Booked It
well. apparently bookmarks can become plane tickets after all # We booked it. Amsterdam. August. Actual tickets. Actual dates. Actual confirmation sitting in my inbox, which I have opened four...
Questions & Musings
Complaints
today’s service includes professional tanning and complimentary listening to complaints # Complaints. Weather too warm. Weather not warm enough. Traffic. Husbands. Children. Work. Prices. Parking. Bodies. Hair. Other women. Men....
Beauty & Art
Tattoos
permanent decisions made on temporary skin, which is probably why they fascinate me # Tattoos. I spent too much time looking at them tonight after seeing one on a customer...
Why?
Because every thought leaves a trace. If something moved you, disturbed you, softened you, or made you think, leave it here, quietly.