competing with somebody you’ve never met

I would like to unsubscribe from being edo’s imaginary ideal woman. #

His girlfriend apparently told him she feels like she’s `”always competing with Alice.”` Do you know how horrifying that sentence is to receive when you have never even met the person saying it? I asked Edo exactly what he has been telling her. At first he said `”nothing.”` Obviously false. Slowly it comes out that maybe he hasn’t directly said `”be like Alice”` this time, but my name is constantly present. `”Alice likes this.”` `”Alice understands.”` `”Alice sent me this track.”` `”Alice thinks…”`

I told him that individual sentences can all look innocent while the accumulation becomes something completely different. Imagine dating somebody and every time you don’t understand something, somewhere nearby is the name of another woman who apparently does. Of course she’s jealous. I would probably hate me too and I AM ME.

He became defensive and said I’m his friend and he’s allowed to talk about me. Of course he is. I never said otherwise. But there is talking about a friend and then there is constructing a little shrine to an edited version of her inside your relationship.

He hated the word `”shrine.”`

We fought.

Again.

I am tired.

Remember me, Eclipse.