valentine

romance feels different when you bought the present with your own salary. #

Valentine’s Day with Yuri and this year I bought his present entirely with money I earned myself. That mattered to me much more than I expected. Obviously he doesn’t care where the money came from, but standing in the shop thinking those hours downstairs became this made the present feel different. Mine to give in a new way.

Dinner was beautiful. Black dress, silver earrings, heels I regretted approximately forty minutes after leaving home and the new perfume instead of Angel. Yuri noticed immediately. `”Different.”` I asked whether he liked it and he leaned closer, smelled it again with the seriousness of a laboratory technician and said yes, but then added, `”Angel smells more like you.”`

This is becoming a conspiracy.

We went dancing afterwards, mostly house, very polished, very pretty, drinks too expensive, everybody looking like they’d spent longer getting ready than they would ever admit. At some point Yuri asked if my feet hurt. I said no. They absolutely did. He knew. Four years of training.

That’s all Splinder gets.

Some things are allowed to remain mine.

Remember me, Eclipse.