ADE
I woke up this morning with the kind of excitement I used to feel before going out in Milano, when the whole day seemed to exist mainly to get me...
Music & Sound
ECLIXAR
digital diary
Journal.
fragments of quiet intelligence
There is a manner in which certain things ask to be written, not so that they may be found, but because to exist in silence, for too long, eventually becomes insufficient. It is not urgency. It is something closer to a necessity that makes no noise, waiting patiently until it discovers the proper form. This archive was born in such a way.
Not as a diary. Not as a blog. Not as something that is updated merely for the sake of appearing alive. It is a place where certain thoughts come to rest, those which do not dissolve, those which return, those which insist with the silent obstinacy of things that truly belong to you...
Every article is a scene. Every word, a frame of something that would not have remained, had it not
been writtenFrom the archive.
Music & Sound
ADE Incoming
Amsterdam is beginning to sound different, or perhaps I am simply paying more attention because Amsterdam Dance Event starts tomorrow. I have been looking forward to it for weeks. There...
Personal Diary
Italian / Dutch / Neither / Both
I answered the phone in Italian this morning, switched to English at work and spoke Dutch in the supermarket on the way home. By the time I reached our kitchen...
Personal Diary
Mine
Sunday began with a long shower, a clean sweater and the wonderful discovery that we had no urgent plans. I came downstairs with wet hair and found Yuri making coffee....
Personal Diary
Identity
I found an old photograph of myself this morning while looking for something entirely unrelated on the computer. It was from years ago, back when my hair was styled differently...
Thoughts & Life
The Difference Between Integrating and Disappearing
Mom called while I was looking for a pair of earrings this morning, and by the time we finished talking I had forgotten which earrings I wanted and was standing...
Thoughts & Life
Integration
I ordered something in Dutch this morning without thinking about it, and only realised afterward that I had done so. There was no little moment of triumph, no internal translation,...
Thoughts & Life
Dutch Debates
I listened to a Dutch discussion on the radio this morning while getting ready for work and understood enough of it to become annoyed before I had even finished my...
Thoughts & Life
Freedom of Speech /2
I was halfway through answering an email this morning when I realised I had written the same sentence three different ways and still wasn’t satisfied with any of them. The...
Thoughts & Life
They Remain Opinions Even When They’re Unpopular
Saturday began with a disagreement about breakfast, although I should explain that the disagreement was entirely between me and the contents of the kitchen. I wanted something sweet, we had...
Thoughts & Life
Unpopular Opinions
I managed to make myself unpopular at lunch today without saying anything particularly extraordinary, which is a useful reminder that people can disagree quite passionately even when everybody is sitting...
Personal Diary
October
October started with me standing in front of the wardrobe holding a black cardigan and trying to decide whether it had become cold enough for the heavier coat. I had...
Why?
Because every thought leaves a trace. If something moved you, disturbed you, softened you, or made you think, leave it here, quietly.