Country Christmas
american christmas songs in a milan apartment planning a dutch future. normal # Country Christmas. Sofa day. Leftovers. Music. Absolutely no useful activity. Correct. Remember me, Eclipse.
Music & Sound
ECLIXAR
digital diary
Journal.
fragments of quiet intelligence
There is a manner in which certain things ask to be written, not so that they may be found, but because to exist in silence, for too long, eventually becomes insufficient. It is not urgency. It is something closer to a necessity that makes no noise, waiting patiently until it discovers the proper form. This archive was born in such a way.
Not as a diary. Not as a blog. Not as something that is updated merely for the sake of appearing alive. It is a place where certain thoughts come to rest, those which do not dissolve, those which return, those which insist with the silent obstinacy of things that truly belong to you...
Every article is a scene. Every word, a frame of something that would not have remained, had it not
been writtenFrom the archive.
Traditions & Culture
Merry Christmas
merry christmas from our little house in milan # Merry Christmas. Ate too much. Laughed. Opened gifts. Gave gifts. Called Dad again. Wore something nice and eventually changed into something...
Traditions & Culture
Christmas Eve
family, food, lights, familiar voices, and the knowledge that next christmas may look different # Christmas Eve. I tried not to think about next Christmas and therefore thought about it...
School & Learning
Kerstmis
christmas vocabulary because apparently even december is a dutch lesson now # Kerstmis. Christmas. I like the word. I said it to Mom and she looked at me as if...
Body & Energy
Having Something to Do
apparently anxiety becomes more cooperative when handed a checklist # Having something to do helps. Future fear becomes smaller when converted into tasks. Research document. Update CV. Save money. Learn...
Laws & Universe
Solstice
winter begins while the year prepares to leave # Solstice. Short light, long night. I like celestial dates because human plans become very small beside them. The Earth does not...
Traditions & Culture
Preparations
wrapping paper, lists, tape disappearing every thirty seconds # Christmas preparation. Yuri wraps gifts better than I do and I resent this deeply. Remember me, Eclipse.
Essence & Future
But We Know the Country
the netherlands. there. officially written # The Netherlands. That’s where we are going to try to live. There. Public. I stared at the sentence before publishing it. We don’t have...
Essence & Future
We Don’t Know Which One Yet
uncertainty has become specific, which is apparently progress # We don’t know which address, neighbourhood, perhaps even exact city. Strange to know the country before the street. I keep imagining...
Essence & Future
Our Next Address
country known. street unknown. city not completely settled. future irritatingly blank # Our next address. We don’t know it. That’s the strange part. We know enough to say Netherlands now,...
Power & Society
Political Parenthesis Closed
back to our regularly scheduled programming: boxes I have not yet bought # Political parenthesis closed. I am not avoiding politics forever. I simply refuse to let the blog become...
Power & Society
Forza Nuova, CasaPound and the Internet Screaming
names, symbols, history, accusations, counter-accusations, caps lock. close tab # I fell into one of those political internet holes tonight, this time around Forza Nuova, CasaPound, the far right, fascism,...
Why?
Because every thought leaves a trace. If something moved you, disturbed you, softened you, or made you think, leave it here, quietly.