Recurrences
some thoughts do not return because they are important, they return because the brain knows the route # Old thoughts recur. Old insecurities. Old arguments you won years ago and...
Memory & Time
ECLIXAR
digital diary
Journal.
fragments of quiet intelligence
There is a manner in which certain things ask to be written, not so that they may be found, but because to exist in silence, for too long, eventually becomes insufficient. It is not urgency. It is something closer to a necessity that makes no noise, waiting patiently until it discovers the proper form. This archive was born in such a way.
Not as a diary. Not as a blog. Not as something that is updated merely for the sake of appearing alive. It is a place where certain thoughts come to rest, those which do not dissolve, those which return, those which insist with the silent obstinacy of things that truly belong to you...
Every article is a scene. Every word, a frame of something that would not have remained, had it not
been writtenFrom the archive.
Questions & Musings
Delusions
the internet remains a machine for giving confidence to people who misplaced evidence # Delusions tonight, prompted by reading something I should have closed three paragraphs earlier. I am fascinated...
Beauty & Art
Tulips Are a Cliché
sometimes clichés become clichés because everybody noticed the same beautiful thing # Tulips are a cliché. Windmills are a cliché. Canals are a cliché. Bicycles are a cliché. I have...
Beauty & Art
I Looked Up the Photographs
this is how a casual idea becomes dangerous # I looked up the photographs. Too many photographs. Winter, spring, night, canals, bridges, brick façades, interiors, bicycles leaning against railings with...
Journey & Time
Amsterdam
just a city name, obviously, which is why I have been looking at it for forty minutes # Amsterdam. Fine. It has moved from one name among several to a...
Journey & Time
Belgium? Denmark? The Netherlands?
european indecision is still cheaper than european travel # Belgium? Denmark? The Netherlands? Yuri said Brussels. I said Copenhagen. Then Amsterdam returned to the conversation without anybody inviting it. «You...
Journey & Time
Departures
some departures are exciting because you know exactly where home will be when you return # Departures used to mean mostly excitement to me. Station boards, airports, bags, the stupid...
Journey & Time
Where Are We Going This Year?
the map remains open and this is how money begins leaving the bank account # Where are we going this year? Still no answer. I like this stage. Cities are...
Journey & Time
Sudden Holidays
the dangerous moment when somebody says we should go somewhere and suddenly the internet has twelve tabs open # Sudden holidays. Yuri said tonight, «We should go somewhere this year.»...
Questions & Musings
Changing Masks
the version of you at work is not fake just because she is not the version in socks at home # Different masks, although I dislike the word because it...
Body & Energy
Lazy Sundays
confirmed: sunday began at an indecent hour and nobody was arrested # Lazy Sunday, exactly as predicted. Coffee at an hour when respectable people were considering lunch. Shower. Hair tied...
Body & Energy
Sundays That Start Late
technically saturday night can borrow several hours from sunday without permission # This post has the wrong title because Sunday is tomorrow, but tonight already belongs to the kind of...
Why?
Because every thought leaves a trace. If something moved you, disturbed you, softened you, or made you think, leave it here, quietly.