valentine
I remain suspicious of compulsory romance and strongly supportive of presents. # Valentine’s Day with Yuri. Dinner first, somewhere properly nice, and yes I wore pink because at this point...
Affinity & Heart
ECLIXAR
digital diary
Journal.
fragments of quiet intelligence
There is a manner in which certain things ask to be written, not so that they may be found, but because to exist in silence, for too long, eventually becomes insufficient. It is not urgency. It is something closer to a necessity that makes no noise, waiting patiently until it discovers the proper form. This archive was born in such a way.
Not as a diary. Not as a blog. Not as something that is updated merely for the sake of appearing alive. It is a place where certain thoughts come to rest, those which do not dissolve, those which return, those which insist with the silent obstinacy of things that truly belong to you...
Every article is a scene. Every word, a frame of something that would not have remained, had it not
been writtenFrom the archive.
Music & Sound
I think I like house
edo is going to behave as though I have personally betrayed him. # I think I like house. There. Published. Evidence exists now. I don’t mean I’ve suddenly stopped liking...
Affinity & Heart
hikari and marico
two years looks much neater written down than it probably feels from inside. # Two years for Hikari and Marico today. I messaged her earlier and she answered approximately nine...
Beauty & Art
february looks edible
the blog now resembles a box of expensive sweets and I am not sorry. # Baby pink and white, silver details, much cleaner header, almost no blue left except a...
Questions & Musings
january mathematics
some calculations are technically possible but emotionally irresponsible. # January cost too much. I realised this while emptying my bag this afternoon and finding receipts from drinks, taxis, shopping and...
Journey & Time
genova lost this weekend
every yes seems to create a no somewhere else lately. # Dad asked if I’m coming tomorrow and I said no. Again. I don’t particularly like seeing that written down...
Music & Sound
apparently I don’t look hardcore enough
pink gloss has once again invalidated my musical knowledge. tragic. # A boy tonight asked whether I `”really”` listen to hardcore. No, obviously. I have spent years buying CDs, exchanging...
Music & Sound
franchino
there are nights where the voice becomes part of the room. # Franchino tonight and I never know how to explain these nights to somebody who hasn’t been there because...
Music & Sound
first friday
four in the morning still counts as friday if I haven’t slept yet. # Just got home and instead of going to bed like a sensible person I turned on...
Memory & Time
2004
first day of the year and my room already looks like a crime scene. # There is one silver earring on my desk and I have absolutely no idea where...
Memory & Time
2003
I thought this year would be about finishing school. apparently years don’t accept outlines. # There are thirteen minutes left of 2003 and Mom has already told me twice to...
Music & Sound
music, 2003
I tried to organise the year by genre and immediately remembered who I am. # hardcore: The Stunned Guys, Tommyknocker, Nosferatu, Neophyte, Promo, Endymion, The Viper and a pile of...
Why?
Because every thought leaves a trace. If something moved you, disturbed you, softened you, or made you think, leave it here, quietly.