Notice
H. Notices Things Before They Become Real # H. predicted a breakup today approximately six hours before it happened. She observed one couple during morning break for maybe thirty seconds...
Affinity & Heart
ECLIXAR
digital diary
Journal.
fragments of quiet intelligence
There is a manner in which certain things ask to be written, not so that they may be found, but because to exist in silence, for too long, eventually becomes insufficient. It is not urgency. It is something closer to a necessity that makes no noise, waiting patiently until it discovers the proper form. This archive was born in such a way.
Not as a diary. Not as a blog. Not as something that is updated merely for the sake of appearing alive. It is a place where certain thoughts come to rest, those which do not dissolve, those which return, those which insist with the silent obstinacy of things that truly belong to you...
Every article is a scene. Every word, a frame of something that would not have remained, had it not
been writtenFrom the archive.
Traditions & Culture
Small disasters
Friday Night Smelled Like Hairspray and Small Disasters # Tonight confirmed my theory that teenagers should not be left unsupervised near mirrors for extended periods. There was a birthday party...
Essence & Future
A rose tea
I Think Some Girls Learn Sadness Too Elegantly # There’s a specific kind of girl who learns how to hide unhappiness so well it almost becomes style. You know the...
Journey & Time
Rain and old movie
Rain Makes G. Look Like an Old movie # It rained all weekend in G. Not delicate rain either. Proper winter rain. The kind that turns the sea dark grey...
Affinity & Heart
Crush and tragedy
Erick Thinks Every Crush Is Either a Tragedy or a Public Service # According to Erick there are only two kinds of crushes: the tragic ones and the educational ones....
Power & Society
Hostile Environments
Marble Hallways and Other Hostile Environments # School corridors in winter feel intentionally designed to destroy emotional stability. Cold marble floors. Grey light. People moving in aggressive clusters. Teachers appearing...
Memory & Time
End of January
January Ends Like a Test I Forgot to Study For # January lasted approximately fourteen years. I know February is tomorrow but emotionally I still feel trapped somewhere around January...
Affinity & Heart
Silence
I think intelligent silence is very rare. Most silence is awkward, hostile, embarrassed, or empty. H.’s silence isn’t. Today during literature class everyone around us was loud in that exhausted...
Affinity & Heart
M. and the sea
M. Likes the Sea More Than He Admits # M. pretends football matters more than the sea. This is clearly false. Tonight he called while I was pretending to study...
Networks & Codes
Secret Door
Internet Feels Like a Secret Door in the Wall # Sometimes late at night the internet feels less like technology and more like a hidden room. Tonight everyone was asleep...
Affinity & Heart
Straight People
E. Says Straight People Invent Problems for Sport # Today E. spent twenty straight minutes explaining why heterosexual couples are “structurally addicted to confusion.” Honestly one of his calmer opinions....
Matter & Spirit
Back to school 00
School Returned Like It Owned Me # School reopened this morning with the emotional energy of a prison accepting returning inmates. The corridors were freezing. Everybody looked tired. Half the...
Why?
Because every thought leaves a trace. If something moved you, disturbed you, softened you, or made you think, leave it here, quietly.